I’ve always joked about being a cold blooded emotionless person because my hands and feet are always cold. I sometimes feel like maybe I am emotionless and at other times, I feel like maybe I should start being indifferent and distant and just mind my own life. I’m not sure what the expectations are - rather, I’m not sure what I want to be doing!
I do know this one thing - everyone always feels like their troubles are bigger than everyone else’s! Sometimes when I’m waiting for my folks to pick me after work and I look at people walking in and out of the building - it seems like everyone has a thunderstorm inside them and they’re all still trying to make a move on. All those smiles - how much of it is real and how many are truly happy?
I also know that I want to run off to a really cold place. I want to freeze. I want to be numb. I want to run and then run some more and then run some more. I want cold winds to hit me in the face. I just want to run away to far away!