If we listened to our intellect, we’d never have a love affair, never have a friendship and we’d never go into business because we’d be too cynical.
Well, that’s nonsense. You’re going to miss life. You’ve got to jump off the cliff all the time and build your wings on the way down.
- Ray Bradbury
Its Ramadan. Alhamdullilah!
I think since the last year, I’ve started taking a little extra effort in this month. I’m not sure why. I guess I’ve made so many mistakes and I continue to make so many mistakes - I feel this is my chance to repent and seek forgiveness and hopefully be forgiven.
AND, I’m in Dubai this year! It’s Ramadan at home with the famalam after a good three years! Alhamdullilah! Love the whole ramadan feeling in Dubai. The family suhoor, the occasional fair with baba, the random hadith mama keeps mentioning during the day, the yummy futoors that mommy makes everyday, hanging out with family friends - just so much goodness, alhamdullilah!
So, in Dubai (rather UAE) - no one is allowed to eat outside during the day - the restaurants are open but curtained so no one can see - post 6’o clock - the streets start buzzing with energy - people making their way to hangout for futoor and then the magrib jamaats followed by isha and taraweeh prayers at the masjid. It’s just amazing! I missed this in UK. I really did!
I’ve personally felt a different connection with Ramadan this year. So much so, I even have certain personal goals set for myself. There are a lot of repetitions from prior years but hey ho! You can only keep repeating till you perfect them and then do them properly for forever, no?
1. I found me a Quran buddy and we make sure we read a chapter everyday. I do want to continue with a page minimum post ramadan. Apparently, on the day of Judgement the Quran stands by you - so why not?
2. I make sure I read the sunnah prayers as well when i pray the obligatory namaz at work. I’d always blame lack of time - this time around, Im trying to give it just that extra 5 minutes. It’s not too much, i think.
3. I’m reading the tafseer for the Quran and learning quite a bit. Everyday, there is a lesson to understand. I’m glad Im doing this - Ive always complained I don’t know much/anything. Now, I have no excuses!
4. I’m avoiding the swearing. It’s difficult. I’m working on it. I really am. Promise.
5. I’m avoiding the music to/from work. Sometimes I wonder if I’m going to stick to this one moving forward. I don’t think so, but I’m going to try. I’m not big on music anyways. There is other stuff I might try out instead. But this one is a 50-50. I do need music when Im running. :/
I’m especially looking forward to the last 10 days. There is so much barkat in them days and I honestly don’t want to miss out on any. I know i won’t get it all but a leeetel bit never hurt no one! Im super excited about then. I plan to go to the masjid for taraweeh prayers and inshaAllah get some tahajud sorted as well.
I also want to start the Quranic Arabic classes being offered by Bayyinah. My excuse for not having started yet is the lack of a notepad. I know - that doesn’t even count as an excuse! But I will go and buy one in a day or so and get those classes started! I’m thinking - If i have 30 minutes to run in the gym, I definitely have 15 minutes for this class! Lets see, I need a notepad. :/ Ok - I’m on it!
On a similar yet different note, I went to the hospital a few days back to see a friend who’s in coma. He didn’t meet with an accident. A simple headache that lead to a brain hemorrhage. Kinda makes you wonder how much you can trust the life you live. How do you know how much time you have for all those plans? for that big bucket? I don’t know. I’m contemplating about life! On that morbid note, Im going to make the most of this Ramadan - as Shah Rukh Khan rightly said once, ‘kya pata, kal ho na ho!’